Can the 50 Shades of Grey movie come out already?!
Hehe FUCK.. get it?
God I’m hilarious.
I’m really glad that I change the way I did over the years. I know that everyone changes. But I feel like I did a little bit more. It’s like my life took a series of u turns.
I’m just going to start writing about how I feel right now. No bull shit. It’s like I can’t explain anything right now. Everything just feels wrong, or out of place. I keep finding myself just starring into the distance trying to figure my life out. I never know what to do. Is everything what we had in the past gone? Should I still try to stay with you and salvage things? I don’t feel like it will last anymore. It feels uulike all the great chemistry is gone. I really dont want it to be. I need you. I feel like I can’t put myself through the pain of ending things. But something inside of me keeps telling me it’s the thing that I should do. I don’t want to waste our time. I don’t want to grow old as a couple that hates each other. It’s one of my absolute biggest fears. I notice myself thinking more and more about my past and the events that have transpired. I always want to live my life with no regrets but one thing just keeps coming to mind. I know I’ve been a pretty poor person lately. But I feel like I’ve been treated as one. I want to escape. I don’t know how or where but I just want to. Im constantly wondering if my recent thoughts is a sort of sign that I’m ignoring. But maybe it’s better to ignore. I don’t know. I hope tomorrow doesn’t come. It’s gonna suck.
I hate being sober. All I do is think about how everything sucks.